more time for ME!

I spend hours a day taking care of my family, and I wouldn't change it for the world! This week I woke up and my face was a complete nightmare.  I had break outs all over my face, and I do know I don't have the best skin, something like this hasn't happened in some time.  I realized I haven't been washing my face like I should, I have been eating like crap, and have been drinking way to much pop and not nearly enough water.  So I am going to work on changing things up a bit.  Wash my face morning and night, cut back on junk food, and sugar, drinking enough water, and getting enough sleep.  These are things that I always say I need to do, but always find a way not to do them.

An open letter to my "friends"

Now that you are all having babies, I want you to think about how hard it is...now imagine you have two, that were born 10 weeks early.  Now I want you to imagine what it would be like if you were three hours away from your family.  Now add to that the fact that your friends have basically turned their backs on you because you got pregnant at 21 and that you didn't share it with them the second you found out, because you were scared to death!  I hope that you are don't have as difficult of a time being a new mom as I did.  I hope you have the love and support of your family and "friends".  I hope that you don't feel isolated, and that your friends don't make you feel guilty for putting your children first and not your social life.  I made it against all odd, although I lost some "friends" along the way, but in the process I gained something that I never thought I would, I gained some perspective about life, and the people that I want in my life.  I learned that I could say no, and that I don't have to make everyone happy.  I learned how to be strong, and how to be a parent.

starting a new chapter...

I feel fortunate, I am lucky enough to have 3 beautiful, smart, happy, healthy and funny children.  They make me a better person, they make me happy, they make me whole.  They also make me crazy sometimes too!  They have started school, and with my youngest just starting Kindergarden (full day may I add)  I realize just how lucky we are to have our children in a school that we really love.  They are cared for by other people that I trust, and that I know have their best interest at heart!  They welcome my children with open arms, and put me at ease when I am clearly upset.  I felt that more than ever today as I walked into the school hand in hand with my new kindergartner!  I could feel my eyes filling with tears as we approached the classroom, and I knew I was going to be a blubbering mess.  My son wanted to go in and see his teacher from the year before, and all it took was for her to ask me how I was for me to fall apart.  She let me cry in her classroom, and offered me a kleenex and a shoulder to cry on. I don't know of many other schools where something like this would be the norm.  I could see the tears in her eyes, and I knew that she wasn't judging me, or looking down on me, she was there to help me!  As I wiped the tears from my eyes, she hugged me and told me what I needed to hear.  "your daughter is in good hands"  and I knew that was true!  I knew my daughters teacher was an amazing teacher!  I knew that she was in fact in good hands, but still I felt sad.  When we walked my daughter into her new classroom, her eyes lit up, she hugged her teacher, and her teacher hugged me (and I am not a hugger) as the room filled up I saw moms eyes filling with tears, real tears, and I saw the emotion that I felt!  I was not alone.  As I walked out of the building, I felt alone, and like a little piece of me was missing!  As I wait for my 3 wonderful children to walk through the door, I know they will all have stories to tell about their first day of school, and all the excitement will put me at ease!  I feel blessed that my children are able to experience wonderful teachers.  Teachers that want them to succeed  and who will care for my children while they are in school.  I know not all parents get to experience this type of thing!

2013

Last year I made a few of the same resolutions I usually make…lose weight, save money, be more organized, bla bla bla.  Well I can honestly I did keep some of those resolutions, I lost 20lbs, was better about spending money, and didn't overdraft the checking account as often as we had in the past.  I was better about staying organized and keeping the house clean.  So I have decided to keep the same resolutions.  I am going to try to keep on track :)