My Poppy...

Its been over 8 years since my grandpa left this earth.  It was probably one of the hardest things I had to deal with as a young adult.  He was the one that was always in my corner, always believed in me, made me feel like I was worth something.  He was my poppy!  I lived miles and miles away, and yet I had a better relationship than my grandparents that lived in the same town as me.  To me it was so unexpected, I really didnt know how sick he really was, and to this day I am kind of glad of that.  See I was able to enjoy talking to him with out the worry of wondering how he was really doing.  I guess it also showed that I really did enjoy chatting with him.  Even if it was just on instant messenger!  

If you were to ask his children about him, they would probably describe him as a grumpy man, I didn't see him that way, maybe he was just different around me, or maybe I brought out the best in him ;)  (thats what I want to think)  

On 11/23 was my Poppy's birthday, and I thought of him a lot that day, although lately I have been thinking about him a lot more than usual.  I guess I just wish that he was able to see me become a mother, and meet my children (even though I know they would have drove him mad!)  I know that he still watches over us, and that he is the one that is still in my corner helping me through rough times.  

To my poppy, Thank you for showing me that I am important, and that I can do what I put my mind too!  You believed in me when others didn't, and never questioned any of my dreams or goals no matter how big or small they were!  

Thanksgiving

I have been feeling very thankful lately, and for good reason.  I have a great family, my children are happy and healthy, my husband is healthy and still working.  I have parents that are always willing to help me out.  I have 2 siblings, that are growing into amazing men.  My friends are great, always there to lend an ear, they dont judge, and they make me realize that I am a good person.  I feel so fortunate to be where I am in life with all of these wonderful people around me.

So this thanksgiving I am thankful for my life, its not perfect, but I am thankful for it.

Its been 2 years...

Two years ago today, my life changed. Two years ago today my life was spared, unfortunatly 4 others weren't as lucky as me. I guess I was at the right place at the right time, maybe I am just over reacting, but for some reason it gets to me. Maybe I was 10 minutes late, for once being late worked to my benefit. Maybe god had other plans for me, or maybe Im just lucky! I still remember that night, and I still own that shirt that I got out of line for. I cant wear it, and I dont know why I keep it around...maybe its a reminder of how uncertain life can be. In a split second everything can change for the better or for the worse!

me being me :)

i know i am not perfect, i pay my bills late, my house is usually messy, i order take out way to much, i am usually late, i say "fuck" way to much, my spelling is horrible,and shop a little more than i should, but at the end of the day i know that i am a great mother, wife and friend and really isnt that most important :)