Stuck

Sometimes I just feel stuck, stuck in a big fat rut.  Dont get me wrong I love the life that I live, but sometimes I feel like something is missing.  I get to stay at home with my 3 wonderful children, and watch them grow, and learn.  I get to see them off to school, and get them off the bus.  I even get some down time when all three are at school.  But there is a part of me that misses working.  Its not the money (although that wouldnt hurt) Its the interaction with other adults, it is doing something that you are good at, or even enjoy.  I enjoy my time at home, but after 5 loads of laundry and 2 loads of dishes, it gets to be a bit blah!  I guess getting out of the house, and going to work, was usually something that I didnt mind.  I liked working at the salon, and learning about new products, and being in an environment where people came in to get something to make them feel pretty.

and thats life...

Years of marriage can take a toll on anyone.  It can make you stronger, weaker, smarter, fatter, it can give you patience, or make you angry.  I have learned that in a relationship, you can love someone more than life itself, but it doesn't make a perfect marriage.  I will work to fix whatever it is that is wrong, and fight until the end.  Tears will be shed, both of joy and sadness, but in the end if you don't give your all, you will always wonder what could have happened.

Down 8 lbs...

So with the start of the new year I have made an effort to cut some of the junk out my diet, and so far I have done a pretty good job.  I wouldn't say I am dieting, but I am watching my calories, drinking more water and less pop.  I guess it is just a start, but I really want to try to get my weight down this year,  and just take better care of myself!

Tell me something I didn't already know....

So for yeas and years I have dealt with many problems, all that I associated with PCOS.  Ever since I was about 14 they have "loosely" diagnosed me with it. (if that makes any sense)  When I was younger they didn't want to diagnose me with it cause they thought it could be puberty, when I was in my early 20's they didn't want to diagnose me with it because I didn't have any problems becoming pregnant.  Now that I am almost 30 I guess they thought, well I guess now we can diagnose her with it.  They ran my blood work yet again, and came back with similar results.  They have now started me with some medication, which I am hoping to reduce some of the symptoms that I am experiencing.  Now I guess it is just a waiting game to see if I will have any luck.  I guess I am just glad that I have somewhat of an idea what is going on in my body!  It is no longer the thing that I have to keep wondering about.  It is a weight off of my shoulders!

Drinking

I think I know now why I drank so much in college...birth control.  WOW is all I have to say, my doc put me back on bc for pcos, and now I am realizing why I drank so much in college, and why I was so emotional.  This isn't very fun, I am hoping that once I get used to it,  it won't be so bad.  So here is to hoping!!

small goals...

My goal was to finish all the laundry this weekend, well I am one load away from that goal.  Yes this may sound lame, but small goals are still goals ;) #mommygoals

Ohh women and pregnancy...

So I have noticed one thing with women, we all make child birth into almost a war story.  I just do not understand it.  Its almost like we as women try to make it seem like our child birthing process was the worst.  Almost like how men compare fishing stories with the biggest fish.  Child birth is not easy, and I do not think that it was meant to be.