Thanksgiving

I have been feeling very thankful lately, and for good reason.  I have a great family, my children are happy and healthy, my husband is healthy and still working.  I have parents that are always willing to help me out.  I have 2 siblings, that are growing into amazing men.  My friends are great, always there to lend an ear, they dont judge, and they make me realize that I am a good person.  I feel so fortunate to be where I am in life with all of these wonderful people around me.

So this thanksgiving I am thankful for my life, its not perfect, but I am thankful for it.

Its been 2 years...

Two years ago today, my life changed. Two years ago today my life was spared, unfortunatly 4 others weren't as lucky as me. I guess I was at the right place at the right time, maybe I am just over reacting, but for some reason it gets to me. Maybe I was 10 minutes late, for once being late worked to my benefit. Maybe god had other plans for me, or maybe Im just lucky! I still remember that night, and I still own that shirt that I got out of line for. I cant wear it, and I dont know why I keep it around...maybe its a reminder of how uncertain life can be. In a split second everything can change for the better or for the worse!

me being me :)

i know i am not perfect, i pay my bills late, my house is usually messy, i order take out way to much, i am usually late, i say "fuck" way to much, my spelling is horrible,and shop a little more than i should, but at the end of the day i know that i am a great mother, wife and friend and really isnt that most important :)

Family

I am a very passionate person about very few things. My family is the number one priority in my life, and when they are hurting so am I. I have watched my brothers in good and bad relationships in the past, and I know that David is really in a good place in his life, he has a job that he likes, has a fiance, and has a beautiful baby boy! He really seems to have it together for once, and is able to be independent and able to provide a life for his new family. Andrew on the other hand makes me worry. He just dates the wrong girls! I just dont get it, they all seem so great in the beginning and then its like BAM they drop a huge bomb, they are cheaters, or crazy, or just boring. He seems to gravitate toward the pretty and crazy ones! They are all so great but then you hear the shit they do you are just in awe that they think that is normal! The latest one was the first one in a LONG time that I really really liked...now I am not feeling the same way. Its like she turned into someone that I didnt think that she was! I dont know I know that he needs to fight his own battles and do what he needs to do, I just wish that he could step back and see the situation for what it is, a lost cause. I really think that he needs to cut his losses and just be single and happy for awhile. But I guess its easier said than done!

money....blahh

Things havent been the best around here when it comes to money. There just isnt enough of it, Joe works what he can and every week we fall just short! I really need to start working again, and soon. I know that things are not going to get better at this rate, and I cant stand to be this stressed out about it. I have put in quite a few applications and still havent heard a thing :( I am hoping and praying that something pans out cause we cant live like this for much longer!

26 facts about me

1. I love my kids more than anything in the world
2. I love to shop, far more than any person should
2. I baby my kids to much, but I know one day I will look back and be glad that I did
3. I think that I have a pretty great life, its not perfect, but its mine!
4. I am very grateful for my family, they mean everything to me
5. I miss all my friends, I don't get to see them enough. 
6. I grew up so much in the past 5 years
7. I love to cook and bake
8. I HATE doing the dishes and cleaning the kitchen, its my least favorite chore
9. NEVER in a million years did I think that I would have 3 kids, but I couldnt imagine my life without each one of them!
10. I am very much a girly girl, but you would never know it by looking at me
11. I love hearing about celebrity gossip 
12. I have very weird luck, if something weird is going to happen its going to happen to me
13. I hate making plans, I prefer to fly by the seat of my pants
14. I am usually late
15. I am addicted to the internet plain and simple
16. I can get along with pretty much anyone
17. I procrastinate because I do my best work under pressure.
18. I have a horrible sweet tooth!
19. I drink way to much milk
20. There are so many things that I want to do with my life, and I have yet to do enough of them
21. I love to write, but dont do it enough
22. My mom is my best friend
23. I LOVE music
24. I could wear a t-shirt, jeans, and flip flops, everyday for the rest of my life and be happy
25. I actually enjoy watching ultimate fighting

26. My twin sons were born more than 2 and a half hours apart with no epidural or no drugs during the delivery

kids

Well just a little update on the kids...Christmas was great, this year the boys really understood santa and the big picture about Christmas in general. They got a lot of really cool toys, and they were really excited Christmas morning to wake up with everything under the tree. The baby got a lot of cute things to, she really seemed to enjoy it. They are all getting so big, I cant believe that they baby is going to be 10 months here in a few days, its really hard to believe. She is starting to pull herself up on everything and starting to cruise around. We are starting to eat a lot more table food and I am bound and determinded that she will not be picky like the boys are. The boys start back to school this week, which is good for them. They really seem to do well with that structure during the day. And its nice for me to get a little break! Other than that just have been trying to get things back in order from the holidays! Joe has been home a lot these past few weeks with christmas and new years, and although it is nice to have him home, it makes things a little more stressful since he gets so restless. Other than that monday is back to the normal schedule, and hopefully things will fall into place!